Was thinking about not going home tonight, and driving until I reached somewhere with no light pollution and no trees so I could look up and admire the stars. But then I would have to drive back home. I wonder sometimes, if it is really best for me to be like I am so open and caring. I remember after some failed relationship or other such thing in my life, talking to Fr. Drew about how heart broken I was, and he said I needed to expect that with all the love in my heart. I give of myself too easily, and I am starting to question if that is actually good for me, but I can't imagine being jaded and cynical would be any better. Especially since I hate myself when I feel that way. I should probably go to bed, I am sure none of this will matter in the morning. But I needed to say something . . .
ETA: Yeah so I was one, tired, and two a little tipsy when I wrote this. It's like Deep Thoughts by Jack Handy.
No comments:
Post a Comment