That just about sums up my existence right now.
Everything is complicated. There are some really good things, like I finished my Grad School Apps, just waiting for my recommendation letters to come in and they'll be complete. Probably won't know anything until March though. So I wait, I wait, and I wait, something I am not good at. And the diet is going well, 14.6 pounds lost in about 7 weeks which puts me averaging 1.8 pounds a week, healthy and steady.
On the other hand, my job is totally leaving me unfulfilled, and there really isn't anything new for me to learn or do here, so I just feel stuck in a rut. August can't get here soon enough (again with the waiting). And someone I care about really deeply hurt my feelings a lot, and refuses to apologize. Which to me means they must have meant what they said, and I am not OK with someone in that relationship feeling that way about me. Why else would you not apologize for a very hurtful thing you said? Ugh and the most frustratingly complicated part of the whole thing is the one person I really want to talk to about this is the person who I am not talking to because of this!
I am so stressed out its unbelievable. I am surrounded by craziness everyday at work, not to mention, not stimulated at work, there is nothing going on here. My finances are all in disarray and I barely have anything left after paying my bills. And now this other thing. I haven't slept well in weeks, and I have been feeling really icky for the past week. Something's got to give.
Everything is complicated. There are some really good things, like I finished my Grad School Apps, just waiting for my recommendation letters to come in and they'll be complete. Probably won't know anything until March though. So I wait, I wait, and I wait, something I am not good at. And the diet is going well, 14.6 pounds lost in about 7 weeks which puts me averaging 1.8 pounds a week, healthy and steady.
On the other hand, my job is totally leaving me unfulfilled, and there really isn't anything new for me to learn or do here, so I just feel stuck in a rut. August can't get here soon enough (again with the waiting). And someone I care about really deeply hurt my feelings a lot, and refuses to apologize. Which to me means they must have meant what they said, and I am not OK with someone in that relationship feeling that way about me. Why else would you not apologize for a very hurtful thing you said? Ugh and the most frustratingly complicated part of the whole thing is the one person I really want to talk to about this is the person who I am not talking to because of this!
I am so stressed out its unbelievable. I am surrounded by craziness everyday at work, not to mention, not stimulated at work, there is nothing going on here. My finances are all in disarray and I barely have anything left after paying my bills. And now this other thing. I haven't slept well in weeks, and I have been feeling really icky for the past week. Something's got to give.
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