I am totally, utterly, and completely in love, with Jesus. I've tried to resist acknowledging this, but really I cannot put up the fight any longer. Today at Mass was the 8th or so time in a row that as the Eucharistic prayer began I was full of love and longing, pure and holy desire, completely in want of one thing, one experience, one person, one reality, I wanted to be united to Christ!
This is the perfect answer to a somewhat constant prayer over the past few months. I have prayed that my feeling and attraction to someone would, whatever the outcome, lead he and I closer to Christ. I can't presume to speak for him, but in my case it has repeatedly. Jesus has been calling me for a while, and I have been resisting, but I am tired of fighting.
Thinking about this though, it's interesting thinking about guys I have been attracted to in the past, and loving Jesus is a quality I greatly admire. And, I think I now realize it is because Jesus is the one I really want. I wrote this post about who I would marry 3 years ago, and I find it amusing now when I consider when my life is possibly headed.
Even now, as I sit here, willing to admit it, I feel so full of joy. Is there any better feeling than falling in love.
Thinking about this though, it's interesting thinking about guys I have been attracted to in the past, and loving Jesus is a quality I greatly admire. And, I think I now realize it is because Jesus is the one I really want. I wrote this post about who I would marry 3 years ago, and I find it amusing now when I consider when my life is possibly headed.
Even now, as I sit here, willing to admit it, I feel so full of joy. Is there any better feeling than falling in love.
